Why I took a break from blogging

Hello everyone , although I doubt anybody noticed I have taken a two and a half year break from blogging on wordpress. The good news is that I have returned with my newest post which is a review on the new season of the popular netflix series “13 Reasons Why”.

I just wanted to write for a moment to explain why I took such a long break from blogging. First of all , I created this blog when I was in high school – specifically when I was half way through high school. Then it came to my last two years and life just got more difficult , the stress that came with exams got worse , two of my dogs passed away which was a horrible time and other personal things in school and outside of school made everything worse. I lost my spark with writing and I didn’t get the same joy out of it that I once did.

However , those two and a half years rapidly went by and now here I am nearly at the end of my first year in college with my love for writing back again. I picked drama , literature and media studies for my A level subjects and after doing these subjects for the last 9 months it has really allowed me to get back in touch with my creative side again and I am in a much happier , relaxed mindset compared to what I was two and a half years ago.

I want to welcome any new readers that I may get as this is my official return to the blogging world. Hopefully , you all like the new content that I’ll be posting.

Bye for now x

13 Reasons Why – Review and Opinions

Recently the second season of ‘13 reasons why’ has been released which , as expected , has sparked controversy over it’s graphic scenes and the representation of issues from bullying to rape to school shootings.

Firstly , I’m going to talk about my feelings towards the show. When the show was released last year it was all that was being spoke about in my high school , at the time I was in my final year which is by far the most stressful year considering it’s when I was sitting my exams and with it being talked about so much it sparked my curiosity to find out what all the fuss was about.

I watched the entire first season in a couple of days and weirdly I felt relieved when I finished watching it which is probably a weird emotion to feel. In the first season we see how Hannah becomes isolated from everyone around her and how events effect her and at the end of the season we see her commit suicide. I found it odd how I was able to relate to how Hannah was feeling and even some of the things she went through I have also experienced , in a way I felt a connection with her character and I was almost glad that the TV show was made because I felt that it definitely raised awareness particularly for mental health. There’s been times when I felt like I was silly or stupid for being upset over something that would happen in school but seeing the same things happen on a TV show and the reaction being the same it was weirdly comforting to know that I wasn’t the only one that gets upset from situations that happen.

I found the show emotional to watch but I think it’s due to how accurately they portrayed real life and what it’s really like inside of a high school because people are very oblivious to the hardships that teenagers face when being in school. I thought it was good how they put light on how even the guidance counsellor wasn’t very helpful towards Hannah because when I was in high school we always got told that the guidance counsellors were helpful and caring but I remember the first experience I had with the counsellors in my school and I honestly hadn’t felt so judged in my life , it was incredibly uncomfortable and I was made to feel like I was just being stupid which made me not want to talk anymore and I never went back to the counsellor in my school again. I read many comments when the show came out about how it was Hannah’s fault and that she should’ve told Mr.Porter , the counsellor , more about what had happened to her but if you could understand how she was feeling then you’d understand why she wouldn’t say anything.

There’s a lot of talk about how the show comes across as a revenge drama because of what happens with the tapes but I personally believe that overall every little thing that happens on the tapes spreads a message to the audience that any little thing you do could potentially be really harmful to another person and although it may only be one thing that you don’t think is a big deal you never know how much of a hard time a person is going through.

When the show starts to delve deeper into the lives of the other characters and we get to see how horrible the backgrounds of some of their lives are it allows us as an audience to see that people act because of things that are effecting them but no one ever knows what is going on in another persons life. I believe in a way that the show is really trying to emphasise how we need to treat everyone with kindness because the tiniest bit of kindness could be the thing that makes someones day because you don’t know what else they’re going through.

In terms of the graphic scenes shown , I absolutely hated watching some scenes in both seasons one and two. The most awful scenes I think we’ve had to witness are the rape scenes in season one , the suicide scene and the scene where Tyler gets sexually assaulted in season two. These scenes are really difficult to watch but it does show the harsh reality of situations that happen and what happens to Tyler raises the issue of male sexual assault which isn’t talked about as much. However , it certainly sparks controversy and starts conversations which I think is a good thing because I believe that the more we talk about these issues the more that we can help people who unfortunately go through these issues and potentially we can help to prevent it.

I’ve heard a lot about how the show ‘glorifies’ suicide , now i’m not sure if this is just me misinterpreting the word ‘glorifies’ but I really don’t understand how it is glorified. We are made to watch a horrible , horrible scene where Hannah commits suicide and we see how painful it is which to me does the opposite of glorifying it and makes it seem like the worst possible thing to ever do and we see how negatively it effects everyone in her life and it shows how much people really cared about her which to me tries to draw the audiences attention onto how suicide should never be the answer and how if you are feeling suicidal then you need to take a moment to realise that there are people who do care that want you to live.

I know people want the show to be cancelled because of the content that it shows , but the show does come with a lot of warnings about it so audiences are aware of what they’re going to watch and they choose to watch it. If you are someone suffering and could be potentially triggered then I wouldn’t recommend watching it because everyone responds differently to the issues that get covered. I personally am somewhat thankful for the show because I feel that it made a lot of people realise how to treat other people , although it really shouldn’t take a TV show for people to be kind.

If you are someone that is struggling then please , please talk to someone. There will always be someone willing to listen that wants to help , even if you feel like you have no one you need to believe that things can get better. There are numbers you can call as well if you or someone you know is feeling suicidal. So please , please do reach out to somebody if you ever get to a lowpoint.

Pray for Paris

Hi everyone , so as most of you have probably already heard there was a terrorist attack in Paris last night. I am so shocked and speechless about what happened and my heart truly goes out to all the families and friends that lost someone yesterday. 

I’m a teenager so seeing and hearing things like this on the news truly terrifies me because this is the sort of society that we have to grow up in and it’s not right. This was a sociopathic act that is so vile and disgraceful and I really don’t understand how anyone can take an innocent persons life just like that. 

In times as dark as these though it is nice how countries all came together to show respect for Paris when Paris went dark and other places lit up in the colours of Paris’ flag. It’s amazing to see how we can all come together to grieve and honour the innocent lifes that have been taken away it’s just so heartbreaking that it was caused through terrorism – the way we all came together after the event proves that there is ways that we can live in peace and respect all countries so it really does baffle me as to why terrorism is a thing , life would be so much better , happier and calmer without it. 

R.I.P to everyone who lost their lifes 👼 And I feel like hugging everyone that lost someone no one deserves the horror that happened yesterday 💖💖💖

Fundraising for children in need 

Hey everybody 🌸🌺 Today at school it was my year groups turn to raise money for children in need – we have a competition between all the year groups to see who can raise the most money. 

As apart of the voice (the student council) for my year group we decided to do a massive bake sale so i’m going to show you all the different things that we baked.

 

These are some plain digestive biscuits that I decorated and they were actually nice. 

  
And then me and my friend tried to make rainbow cupcakes and ended up with this bright green thing which actually tastes a lot nicer then it looks it just tastes pretty sugary.

  
This is what the rainbow buns turned out like so I suppose they came out okayish?

  
Then we made loads of brownies but seen as me and my friends are a teeny bit stupid we tried to get the brownie out of the tray by tipping it upside down on the metal tray bar thingy and slowly all the brownie just fell out and got ruined 😂 I was so gutted 😂 but when we did all of the selling today the brownies sold out the quickest.

  
Then there was the rainbow cake that we tried to make and we had it in the oven for about half an hour and it was just like a pool of jiggly slop it was such a fail and unfortunately we was unable to fix it.

  
And then we had the classic chocolate rice krispie buns that we made.

  
And then because we had so much pink icing and rice krispies left we decided it was a good idea to mix those together …. Yeah those tasted disgusting 😹

  
Then there was the attempt at trying to cover the green buns because they look horrid whilst they’re green so we tried to cover it but the green was still obvious. 

On the brightside though we sold out of everything and we had loads we had four long tables just full of baking goodies on sale and i’m counting the money up tomorrow to see how much we raised so i’m quite excited to find out how much we managed to raise. 

That’s all for today everyone , toodlepip 🌺💖

Fundraising ideas

As you all probably know already “Children in need” is coming up soon and that’s a time where I think it’s good for us all to try and raise a bit of money for charity. At my school we have this student leadership program called ‘the voice’ From each year group there is a group of students that are apart of ‘the voice’ – I am apart of it and I am also the director for my year group which basically means that in a way I am the ‘chairmen (chairwomen in my case)’. As apart of being on the voice something that I do enjoy getting the year group to take part in is fundraising. We’ve come up with a whole load of fundraising ideas recently and I thought that I would share some with you all so as that then it also gives you some ideas for if you ever decide to do some fundraising but are stuck for ideas.

  1. Sponsored run – you would be surprised at how much money actually gets raised by doing this. There are quite a few different ways to set up a sponsored run so you can create it however you want to and then all the money earned can then be donated to a charity of your choice.
  2. Money jars – this is a really simple idea. All that you gotta do is leave money jars in places and ask people to leave any loose change that they don’t want/need into the jars and then you can add it all up and donate it to charity. Even though the majority of the time it’s only like 5p’s that get put in the jars it all soon adds up quickly.
  3. Themed non-uniform days – this is more of an idea that can be used in schools. You can either just have the students come to school in their regular clothes or you can set a theme for the students to follow. This raises money because whenever the students have non-uniform they would also bring in £1 which will get donated. At my school there’s just over 1500 students so by simply holding a non-uniform day you can raise a ton of money.
  4. Teddy and toy donation – now this idea doesn’t really raise money but the point behind it is that you get people to bring in their old teddies and toys that they don’t want and they can be donated to children hospitals. I think that this is a lovely idea because even though you won’t be raising money from it you will still be making a child happy if they end up with your old teddies/toys because it’s a gift to them.
  5. Bake sale – This is such an overused idea but it does indeed raise a heck of a lot of money. Just by baking a few batches of buns and cookies and selling them off you can raise a lot of money. I did one of these bake sales for Red nose day and raised £324.57 so they do work out really well.

If you do all of the ideas at the same time then you are bound to raise a massive load of money and you can donate it all to charity. By doing something as simple as this you could be helping to change someones life or help people that need our help.

That’s all that I would like to say for now so i’ll blog you all later and please check out my other blog posts as well and comment your thoughts – I love receiving feedback 🙂

Just be yourself 

So recently I had a slight argument with my best friend over who she is. I was supposed to be moving away but i’m staying where I am now and both me and my friend are really happy about that but when i was actually going to move she started acting differently like she was just completely changing personality and I didn’t like it because she wasn’t being her and she was acting differently just so other people would be friends with her because if I left she wasn’t going to have anyone because apparently no one is as close to her as I am but then again i’ve known her for 11 years so she’s practically a sister to me.
I don’t like the thought that anyone should have to act differently just to get people to like them because if you think about it the people that become friends with you when your not being you there technically not friends with YOU they are friends with the fake you. Whats the point of even putting on a facade? Of course not everyone will like you but it shouldn’t mean that you have to change to make them like you. Wouldn’t you rather only have one or two true friends that will always look out for you even if they can’t be with you all the time than have a million friends that don’t know the first real thing about you?
I’ll be honest i’ve been in the position where I had literally no friends at one point and i tried acting like everybody else to see if it would change anything but the only ‘friends’ I attracted were the type of people that don’t actually care about you and only want to add you into the group of people that stand round them just so they look more popular. If you put yourself through trying to be someone else you’ll only make yourself unhappy. So what i did was i came away from the people that i’d fallen into a group with and I started just being me again and yeah it took a lil while but I socalised with more people and I met people that i’d never even spoken to before because I didn’t even know they exisisted but from meeting them they’ve become some of my closest friends because they were friends with me for me and I can talk to them literally about anything and it makes me really happy knowing that the friendships I have with them aren’t just one way or based on trying to be popular.
This was why i argued with my best friend because she tried changing to fit in but I kept telling her not to because i’ve been there , done that , got the t-shirt and I know it doesn’t end well. So my point is is don’t waste time being someone your not because it really won’t help you in any way, shape or form and if people don’t like you because your different then so what? Being different is good because that makes you who you are and you stand out from the crowd because being normal and being the exact same as other people is boring. Just remember the people that don’t like you for being different only don’t like you because you actually have the guts to stand out and be you and you don’t try to blend in just to please other people and live upto social norms.

Just be yourself and enjoy it 💖

Homophobia

One thing in life that i’ve never understood is why are people homophobic? The word homophobic sounds like it has the word phobia in it which suggests that if you are homophobic then you have some weird fear of people that aren’t attracted to the opposite sex. 

Why? Why are people homophobic? Just because you like someone of the same sex doesn’t change who you are. It doesn’t effect the world that people have fallen in love with people of the same sex. 

Love. Love is the one thing that we all spend our lifes searching for and yet when some people finally find love in someone of the same gender they are judged for it. You can’t help who you fall in love with. 

Another thing I don’t really believe in is being bisexual or pansexual or even just gay in general. I don’t think that people should be labelled based on who they fall in love with. I really don’t think it’s right that if two men or two women fall in love then they are automatically classed as being gay or being lesbians. I don’t think they should be classed as that : I think they should be classed as humans. All they are doing is feeling a human emotion towards someone of the same sex. What’s so abnormal about that? 

Honestly , I cannot see why anyone has a problem with people of the same gender falling in love. I was having this discussion in my maths class a few days ago and there was one girl that was saying she’s homophobic because she thinks it’s weird. What’s so weird about love? 

Love comes in all different forms so why the hell do some people think it’s okay to be rude and discriminate the people who are brave enough to express their love for someone of the same sex? Equality – everyone should be treated equally. Being “gay” doesn’t change who you are because that’s not a characteristic or a quality that’s just a label so so what if somebody is “gay” because that’s not what makes them who they are. 

We are all human. We all feel emotions. We all love something / someone and no one should be judged based on who or what they love.

   
 

My hairstyling profile

One of my biggest interests and talents is hairstyling – I am so passionate about it , I just love doing and learning new hair styles. Therefore I have decided that I will show you some of the hairstyles I have done. 

  1.  The triple waterfall braid 
  2.  The fishtail braid 
  3.  The Ladder braid 
  4.  The hook braid (I called it the hook braid because if you look at it it kinda looks like a hook) 
  5.  The side dutch fishtail braid 
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How to deal with panic attacks

Panic attacks are very traumatic and scary things to experience. 3 weeks ago was the first time i’d ever had a panic attack but I didn’t just have one I had 5 all within a small time period on the same day. For me it was absolutley terrifying because i’d never had a panic attack before and I didn’t know what to do. One of my friends is prone to having panic attacks and i’ve helped her recover from them before but when it happens to yourself it’s just completely different like you can’t even comprehend what’s happening around you. 

I ended up going to the hospital because of the many panic attacks that I had and they gave me some rather good advice on what the signs are to having a panic attack. 

~shaking

~paleness 

~dizziness

~sweating 

~ numbness / pins and needles

~heavy , unstable quick breathing
These are all signs of a panic attack about to happen so if you notice this happening to you or to someone else then the best thing to do is to get them in a quiet area away from crowds and get them to focus on there breathing so it doesn’t get out of control or even just get them to focus on something else so as they aren’t thinking about panicking. 

Another thing is that if you get the numbness and pins and needles in places such as your arms and legs then you don’t need to worry about that either. It happened to me and I couldn’t walk or even stand up without help but when I was in the hospital they explained that it isn’t something to worry about and all that is is all the blood and oxygen moving towards your heart and lungs to keep them functioning as your arms and legs don’t need it as much as what your heart and lungs do. 

If you are prone to panic attacks then it would be useful to work out what it is that triggers them to happen for example my friends trigger is when there’s suddenly a really loud noise or she doesn’t have her personal space then it causes her to have a panic attack. Whereas on the other hand there’s me that has never had panic attacks before until then and it could just be a one off sort of thing due to emotional/mental stress ~ that’s what the doctors told me anyway because I had 5 panic attacks on the same day so it can just be phase. 
The most important thing to do when having an attack is to remain calm and focus on controlling your breathing , I know that it is much easier said then done but you really do just have to keep telling yourself that you’re okay and that everything will be fine because in the end you will be okay.

The power of friendship

Sometimes I feel like we take our friends for granted. What is a friend? That’s a question that I feel needs to be answered. So many of us surround ourselfs with loads of people to create that impression that we’re popular that we have loads of ‘friends’ but what actually is a friend? 
  
To me a friend is someone that will always have your back , is someone that will always be there to catch you and pick you back up when you fall physically and emotionally , is someone that isn’t interested in all the gossip involving you but is interested in how it’s making you feel so they can be there for you. To me a friend isn’t someone who believes in friendship but is someone who believes in family ; a true real friend will just naturally bond and connect with you to the point where you’re practically non blood related twin siblings. 

  
Friends aren’t the people that only stick around for a while then leave you out to go be friends with someone else , a friend is the person that will never leave you because they value your friendship too much to go off with someone else. Friends are the people that are more than happy to embarrass you in front of people -they aren’t the people that would walk away from you in an embarrassing situation pretending they don’t know you. 

  
 I think that we sometimes don’t realise who our real friends are until they’re gone. Sometimes we get so caught up in wanting to be known and be popular that we befriend everybody and anybody just to get in with the ‘it’ crowd and we leave our true friends behind but then one day you’ll be in need of a friend and there’ll be no one there and you’ll think to yourself ‘I can’t believe I lost my best friend’. That’s why I think we all just need to take a step back sometimes and just think to ourselfs ‘who is it that genuinley cares about me?’ ‘Who is it that is always there to fight for you?’ ‘Who is it that cares so damn much about you that they will actually be heartbroken if you left them to befriend someone else?’